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I have two polar bears living inside of me.
One of them is the happiest, cutest, most playful and cuddly polar bears in the world. His name is Manny. Manny is so energetic and creative; ready for anything. Millions of wonderful and amazing ideas flow through his mind every day. He could take on the world. He loves everyone and everything. To Manny, life is fantastic; the world is beautiful.
The other's name is Depry. Unlike Manny, Depry is sad. He does not have the energy and motivation that Manny has. In fact, he doesn't have the energy for anything. Depry is easily annoyed by everything around him; including the things he loves; which makes him get mad, and them get hurt. When Depry gets mad at the things he loves, he cries and cries. He does not want to hurt the things he loves, but he cannot control it. It just happens.
When Depry is sleeping, Manny is wide awake. I do not mind it too much when Manny is awake. I feel happy when he visits. However, it's not all fun and games when Manny is around. I have trouble sleeping when he is being too loud. He stays up late at night telling me about all of his ideas and plans. He likes to party, also; playing songs inside my head all night long and jumping around.
When Manny finally tuckers himself out after all of his partying, Depry rolls out of bed. He isn't as happy to see me as Manny. Depry reminds me of how stupid and impossible Manny's ideas and plans are, and tells me to give up on trying to complete them. He never lets me go out and have fun when he's around; keeping me locked up inside. He says he feels lonely without me, and besides, the people I wanted to play with don't like me; well, that's what Depry tells me anyway. When Depry visits, I try not to talk to people. Online and in real life. I am afraid I'll say something to upset them, after all, it is what usually happens when Depry is around. I don't get much sleep when he visits either. He tends to keep me up, talking about his worries and fears. It's a wonder how I manage to get any rest at all.
It's hard living with the two of them.
It's nice when they're both asleep, though. I don't have the distractions and problems like I do when they're awake.
I feel normal and balanced.
But that only lasts for a short while.
Because eventually one of them is bound to wake up again.
But that's how it is, and that's how it always will be.
Me and my polar bears.
One of them is the happiest, cutest, most playful and cuddly polar bears in the world. His name is Manny. Manny is so energetic and creative; ready for anything. Millions of wonderful and amazing ideas flow through his mind every day. He could take on the world. He loves everyone and everything. To Manny, life is fantastic; the world is beautiful.
The other's name is Depry. Unlike Manny, Depry is sad. He does not have the energy and motivation that Manny has. In fact, he doesn't have the energy for anything. Depry is easily annoyed by everything around him; including the things he loves; which makes him get mad, and them get hurt. When Depry gets mad at the things he loves, he cries and cries. He does not want to hurt the things he loves, but he cannot control it. It just happens.
When Depry is sleeping, Manny is wide awake. I do not mind it too much when Manny is awake. I feel happy when he visits. However, it's not all fun and games when Manny is around. I have trouble sleeping when he is being too loud. He stays up late at night telling me about all of his ideas and plans. He likes to party, also; playing songs inside my head all night long and jumping around.
When Manny finally tuckers himself out after all of his partying, Depry rolls out of bed. He isn't as happy to see me as Manny. Depry reminds me of how stupid and impossible Manny's ideas and plans are, and tells me to give up on trying to complete them. He never lets me go out and have fun when he's around; keeping me locked up inside. He says he feels lonely without me, and besides, the people I wanted to play with don't like me; well, that's what Depry tells me anyway. When Depry visits, I try not to talk to people. Online and in real life. I am afraid I'll say something to upset them, after all, it is what usually happens when Depry is around. I don't get much sleep when he visits either. He tends to keep me up, talking about his worries and fears. It's a wonder how I manage to get any rest at all.
It's hard living with the two of them.
It's nice when they're both asleep, though. I don't have the distractions and problems like I do when they're awake.
I feel normal and balanced.
But that only lasts for a short while.
Because eventually one of them is bound to wake up again.
But that's how it is, and that's how it always will be.
Me and my polar bears.
Sorry to throw this semi-depressing thing at you but I needed to write this down.
So, I'm finally starting to ease out of my most recent depression states. This one lasted two weeks.. :/
I don't like it when they stretch out like that, usually it just changes throughout the day, but sometimes not.
Living with bipolar is pretty hard most of the time, but I get through it~
So yeah, I refer to it as having two polar bears living inside of my mind (haha, bipolar. get it?
) to put a lighter view on it. it helps me 
Manny refers to the manic state of bipolar (Mania) where you're happy, like, all the time.
Depry is obviously depression, 'nuff said.
this late night piece of writing belongs to me
So, I'm finally starting to ease out of my most recent depression states. This one lasted two weeks.. :/
I don't like it when they stretch out like that, usually it just changes throughout the day, but sometimes not.
Living with bipolar is pretty hard most of the time, but I get through it~
So yeah, I refer to it as having two polar bears living inside of my mind (haha, bipolar. get it?
) to put a lighter view on it. it helps me Manny refers to the manic state of bipolar (Mania) where you're happy, like, all the time.
Depry is obviously depression, 'nuff said.
this late night piece of writing belongs to me
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This is awesome! So true... And as regards being semi-depressing, I don't know about you but knowing others deal with that stuff too helps. And you cant have too many alternative ways to explain illnesses like ours... Its the only way we can help non-sufferers to understand that a) we cant always help it and b) its not a reflection on them (mum, sis, etc)